selves

i see me, looking at u, looking at me.

assimilating u as a part of my inner voice,

i am u, u are me and we are not alone.

u are the gaze that cradles me, punishes me, understands me,

and for that i respect u, i validate u, i accept u.

when i am lost i will look to u and u will see me.

boys paradise

2021

bonding in the garden

2021

self-portrait in skirt

2022

peace in drowning / a fugitive to my sleep

2023

self-portrait looking up

2022

bound to the garden

2021

seeing my body as something that is continuously transforming, these photographs act as records of time, tracing memories, processing, bodily changes, an archive to reflect on my past-selves in relation to who i am now and am becoming

and in multiplying the self, mirrored, cloned and living together in the present i want to represent the importance of care each of our ‘selves’ can provide when we reflect and are met with the union of our past

de part

2022

de part (together)

2022

meeting my dead father for the first time

2022

departed

2022

how to take form as a conditioned shadow

2022

sunset portal 2023

(seeing myself in someone else)

2022

(me)

(to say goodbye to a summer)

(infatuated with my first trans love, who’s body felt like an echo of mine, who’s sweat smelt like mine, especially after sex, indistinguishable, who’s words intoxicated my thoughts, and planted and grew an imaginable cool and comfortable kind of love that constantly made me curious to know more about who they are, we’re, becoming and festered as something that wasn’t mine at all, a kind of love that saw trans in my body and in my mind and understood what i stood for, that grew too, is growing, seeing myself in someone else, seeing myself, seeing myself (seeing myself) who i am and who i’m a part of, how my bodies unique queering questions were answered in a way that i could hold in the familiarity of a body knowing mine)


(now in passing)(at different speeds)(it’s always go)


(sometimes i smell myself to return to their body)(or was it my body)



((was it always me))

(seeing myself)

2022

self-portrait looking down

2022

im not in love with u

2021

junk

2021

for the things i cannot forget

2022

present

2022

the flower girl

2022

me/we

2021

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